Birthday Wishes

Im holed up in my bedroom at the moment, curtains drawn, lamps on, Sade's 'Soilder of Love' is playing on Itunes. I have just spent an hour in the bath lathering myself with lotions and potions. This is not my usual morning activity but today is my birthday.

I didn't  have a list of things I wanted to do today. But I did have a few things I didn't want to spend my birthday doing:

• NO Cleaning - I am self confessed clean freak, I love to have the house spic and span it gives me a sense of order and control.  I just peeked into the kitchen and it took all of my willpower to not tidy the dirty breakfast dishes and smeared highchair. Today I am not going to Clean!!
• NO Rushing - Ask any of my friends that know me well and they will say I have one speed, and one speed only and that is Maximum. Its stimulating having lots of things on the go, projects, appointments, catch-ups with friends but the problem sometimes presents itself where I cant wind down. Today I didn't want to plan massage appointments or lunch dates because I just wanted to BE. I need that at the moment, I feel a call deep within my soul asking me to just BE STILL. 

So as a result of the things I don't want to do, here I am..... cozy in my bedroom, my safe haven, with nothing but time, time to write, a past time that soothes my soul, time to read, time to nap, listen to music and reflect on becoming 29.